I'm on a local parenting board - I found this group of gals when I was planning my wedding. We planned our weddings together via the local wedding chat board and now are having babies together and keep in contact via the local parenting board. They're a wonderful reason and several have become life long friends.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
So, if you'd like to get good cooked potatoes and skip the peeling part - give this a try:
Monday, March 16, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I come by my excessive worrying very, very naturally. My dad is a self admitted worry wart. He can worry with the best of them. He came by it naturally too - his dad was a champion worrier. Whether I had a great grandparent that taught my Grandpa to worry, I don't know...but I'd have to guess it's a learned trait - so the answer to that is probably yes. I've got a worry on my heart and I just can't stop thinking about it - so I thought I'd throw it out there for good energy or prayer, whatever your fancy. I know it's silly to worry about something when you don't have any answers, I know I just need to give it up to God and let go. But I worry - it's who I am...and I don't know how to do anything else right now.
Madelyn still has that green poo going on. Yeah, I'm worrying about green poo. Welcome to motherhood. Other than that, she seems much better. However...she's still got that green poo going on and that isn't normal. When we were at the doctor last week, she mentioned The possibility that this was the sign of an allergy to milk protein, which she's getting through my breast milk.
So, don't you know I googled that to read all about it. And aside from the green poo, she isn't exhibiting a ton of the symptoms. She isn't throwing up as much, she's not seeming as gassy, she's growing, thriving, no eczema that I can tell. She does get fussy in the evening, but most babies do - that's very, very normal from what I can tell.
But that darn green poo - the only thing I can find on the Internet that this indicates is an allergy to milk protein. And the way to handle that? Either she goes on a very special formula or I go on a completely dairy free diet. Either solution does not really sit well with me. I hate pumping - Lord knows I do...but I do it because I know breast milk is best. But to go on a completely dairy free diet? Geeeeez...could breastfeeding get any more difficult for us? Not only to have to exclusively pump, which is no walk in the park....it's hard work....but to have to completely change the diet of the household? Common!!! Someone out there give me a break already! Pretty much every casserole (of which there are many left) in my freezer has dairy in it. Nearly everything we eat has some degree of dairy in it. I'd have to relearn how to cook, practically - new recipes, new thought patterns. And honestly, that might be more than I can take. And dang it, I worked *hard* to get the freezer stash of milk I've got for her. I've got almost 200 ounces frozen, waiting for when I go back to work. Any mommy who's pumped knows that's a lot of milk. That's 7 full days of food for her. To throw it out? That's like pumping my blood and then washing it down the drain. It makes me want to cry to think about it!
However, the Mommy Guilt is STRONG if we just put her on formula. Part of me feels like I've tried hard enough to breast feed her and it's okay if I put her on formula...but part of me would feel reeeeeeeeeally guilty. Like I was taking the easy way out. Not to mention that kind of formula is massively expensive and there aren't tons of coupons going around for it. It sure would be easier to just feed her formula - no more pumping...but the guilt...the major guilt. The pro breast feeding movement has done a *really* good job of drilling it into our heads that breast is best and making us mommies feel uber, UBER guilty if we don't. Am I a total sellout if I decide that non dairy is too much for me? Am I being selfish? ***sigh***
And here's where my real worrying comes in....what if she doesn't outgrow it? I've had family members (well, only one that I know of) have a milk allergy. His was pretty severe and wasn't fun for he or his parents to deal with. I don't want my little girl to have to deal with that. I just want her to be able to be worry free and not be concerned that something someone feeds her is going to be harmful to her.
Her two month (two month!!!) check up is on Monday and her doctor will follow up on our visit last week - so I should know more about what we might have to do then. Jim is able to go with me, I'm happy to say. It's always so much easier when we're both at the doctor's together. He thinks of questions I don't think of and it's good when we hear things at the same time instead of them being filtered through my brain.
If you have a little bit of spare positive energy, send it my way. If you are a pray'er, please pray. I realize that in the big picture of things, this is a very small issue. There are lots of people that have way more to worry about than I do. That doesn't mean this is fun, though and I'd really like for this green poo to just be a bug she hasn't gotten rid of and not a sign of gastrointestinal distress of the allergic kind.....
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Thursday was a great day, which followed a not so great day.
Let me start with the great day news...
I'm now off work until May 22nd. YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
I got word from my HR department that now, in the state of Washington, short term disability time (that you get when you have a baby) and FMLA (that you get when you bring a baby home, adopt a baby, need to care for an immediate family member or yourself) do not run concurrent - they must run separately.
What does that mean for me? Previously my company (and I) thought they ran concurrently and I was due to return to work on April 6th. Now, I'll be off work until May 22nd.
6 more weeks home with my little munchkin!!! I feel so blessed that I have a company and boss supportive of that time and SO blessed that Jim and I are in the financial position to be able to afford me being off. YIPEEEEEEEEE
Now, for the challenges of the two days. Little Miss has been having some odd colored poop (yeahhh, you're reading the blog of a new mom, we're going to talk about poop sometimes) and has a strong tendency toward gasiness and spit up. On Wednesday, about 2 pm, little miss started crying hysterically. Usually I'm able to calm her....but she wouldn't settle. She cried her little eyes out until she passed out at midnight. I went over to my in laws for dinner - and nothing any of us tried would calm her. I drove her around - no go. She drank her bottle, sort of, but threw all of it up. Ugh...poor baby :( :(
Usually she wakes up somewhere between 3 - 5 depending on when I was able to get her down wanting to eat and change. However, on Thursday, I was the one who woke up first, at 7:30!!!! I tried to give her a bottle and she didn't want any part of it. So, I let her go back to bed. This seemed a bit strange to me - so I called her doctor at 8. They agreed and we went in for a visit. The verdict was that it was either (a) a bug (b) the beginnings of colic (ohh, please no!) or (c) she might have an allergy to cow's protein and is reacting to it via my breast milk (ohhh, REALLY, please no!!).
We came home and she literally slept all day - which is completely unusual for her. She did wake up in the evening for a bit and was a bit fussy and projectile vomited her bottle onto me during Grey's Anatomy (apparently she thinks the Izzy storyline is ridiculous as well) and then went right back to sleep. She slept hard all night and woke up at 5 this morning for her bottle, but with a dry diaper that right now, I'm attributing to the fact that she projectiled her bottle before bed. We'll see...but because of all that, I'm leaning toward a bug. My poor baby...her first little bug :( :(
At any rate, we have her two month check up on Monday - so we'll be able to check back in with the doctor and see what she has to say after we monitor her for the weekend.
Let's all pray bug....and be shocked that my littlest is going to be two whole months old next week.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
How cute is this give away?!?! Grosgrain: Puss Ann Guest GIVEAWAY!!!!
Posted by IdahoGirl at 3/04/2009 09:38:00 AM
My friend Rachel (of Moby wrap guru fame) has inspired me to be more frugal. Actually - I had been thinking of it and she's doing a lot with it, and has great links on her site.
ANYWAY - another friend had this link on her site....and free is frugal, so I'm excited to enter this contest: Grosgrain: Born 2 Impress GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!
Posted by IdahoGirl at 3/04/2009 09:35:00 AM
Monday, March 2, 2009
Today I was reminded how truly blessed I am. I was having one of those days….Madelyn would just *not* sleep – and she didn’t sleep well last night, so I was exhausted to tears. Jim volunteered to take her, but he works nights and he drives a semi. The last thing I need is my beloved driving off the road because I couldn’t hack being a mom.
But I was tiiiiired and wondering what the heck I’d gotten myself in to and how I ended up being such a crummy mom that I couldn’t get my baby to sleep.
Now, I know you’ll say I’m not a crummy mom – at least I hope you will!!! – but sometimes the heart takes over the head and you’re just convinced that you should know how to take care of your child. People have been telling you that you’re a natural for years – so why can’t you get a grip on things?!?!
Then my sister in law Jeni. And she was exactly what I needed. She invited me over to visit with her friend Rachel (http://thewakefieldfamily2000.blogspot.com/2009/03/prayer.html) who taught me a better way to use my Moby wrap – and lo and behold….MADELYN SLEPT!!!!!!!
And I realized that I forget the loving support system I have around me…that all I have to do is ask for help and it’s there.
And Jeni rocks my world. She’s a great mom and a great friend and if anyone is watching my child and it’s not me, I’m glad it’s her.
I love you Jeni – thank you for calling to today. You were my blessing in disguise.
And thank you Rachel....you've given me a bit of hope that maybe I can get this Moby thing down!